Iridescent Spirits

Shelter of a constantly changing Soul.


Am I invisible?


No, wait.

There has always been this problem around me. Depression and stuff grew so much onto me that I usually felt I’m invisible. They didn’t notice me on the streets, usually bumped into me, and always I was the one who didn’t have place on photos. People couldn’t even memorize my name, even though it is not that complicated, and also it is kind of old, easy, and I’m really happy that I didn’t get my name after the antagonist of a popular soap opera. People usually were/are so bad at remembering my name that they usually gave me new ones, the only thing that managed to stuck into their heads was the initial ‘A’, that has always been the only thing they remembered and I got my new names based on that. Even my psychologist (can you see the irony?) had a hard time remembering my name.

I sat right in front of him and he started, “Well, dear Andrea!” I couldn’t bear it anymore so I interrupted
“It’s Adrienn!”
“Excuse me, what is it?”
“I said, it’s Adrienn!”
“Oh, alright sorry Adrienn!” Then we kept talking for a maximum of five munites without any problem. Bang!
“So, dear Anette!”
“It’s Adrienn!!”
“Oh, sorry again…”

Now I mean can you really see the irony? After that had happened I almost expected to someone eventually call me Arshole. Really, I mean they always got the ‘A’ right, and nothing else. But I had to realise that this never will happen. And as for an extra gift today I got a letter from a site I signed up with the purpose of finding a job, I checked it I still have a valid account with my full name. I have to say I hardly read their messages as they are mostly spams but something caught my attention this time:

“Dear, First Name!”

C’mon! That doesn’t even start with an ‘A’! Oh, and by the way, thanks for the another brick to build my new self on! 😉


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Monday Monkey and the Year of the Goat

I am a Goat, no wait, that didn’t sound that ridiculous in my head. I was born in the Year of the Goat according to the Chinese horoscope.

On the very first day in this new year, exactly 20 February, my prayers were heard by someone and I goat got! a job! Yay! *-*

Yep, I got it on Friday, and I’m telling you only now! I know I’ve been bad, but to tell the truth, it is not only that I was afraid of shouting my luck away but also because recently I got a little out of inspiration.

Probably, or I think so, this is because I started living my life out of my head. I don’t only dream and create my world only inside my head but I’ve actually started living it. I am blogging, instead of locking everything up inside me, and I found job, because I (had and) wanted to. These are pretty great for me, I know, but I have to say, I feel a little lost now. I didn’t lose interest in writing my stories I just find it a little bit diffcult now. But I think as soon as I get used to the job, I will be quite the same again.

No, no. I’m not depressed, I am just exhausted. I was lucky enough to have the chance to study my job before I actually start it and it turned out – okay I’ve always known it – that I’m really bad at multi-tasking. I’m not a smart phone after all, and besides my phone is one the dumbest ones. But the point is that I’m certain I’m going to do the job well, while somehow manage to go on with my blog. It’s not that I won’t have time to write, but I possibly won’t have time to think. At least for a while.

I wasn’t about to post anything today but I just bumped into this quotation, and okay, let it speak for itself:

“Successful people are those, who not only do their job great, but also they are doing it when they don’t fell like it and even when others can’t see them.”

Emil Tonk (Translation by me)

Basically, this is what reminded me that I love blogging, and it works as a therapy for me better than anything else, and even if I feel a little bit stuck it doesn’t mean that I should end it. That option didn’t even popped into my mind! It only means that I have to try out something different that would fresh it, and also myself, up.

*jumping around the room out of happiness* Is it really Monday?


A Poem by my Boyfriend

From June 2013 during an exhausting exam period. I think most us know the pressure well. 😀

And since it’s Valentine’s Day, I thought I’d share this little pieve of cuteness 🙂 Hugs! ❤

To my love

I’m not quite sure why I wrote this,
Maybe in the hope of a kiss.
There are a few exams still left
And it’s indeed a pain in the ass.
But after everything is done
We will be together having some fun! 
Here is a kind poem for you
(This is new for me too.)
It prevents you from being blue.

In this poem, it might be my goal
To take care of your fragile soul.
If I accomplish this aim,
On Facebook, I shall have a little fame.

Please forgive me if this poem is lame,
For the mistakes and bad rhymes, I have no shame.
This poem ends now, I know you’re relieved,
And I hope the message of it is well received.


Okay, now what’s happening?



Just now, I was nominated for the Liebster Award by the dear Hargun from Living the Dream. Thank you my friend for the nomination you surprised me and made my day. 🙂

The  word Liebster is derived from German meaning sweetest,kindest,nicest,beloved and the like.  This award is given to up and coming bloggers with less than 200 followers. This award is a great opportunity to motivate fellow bloggers, to encourage them to continue the good work, irrespective of the size of their audience.

Here are the rules to accept and nominate further:

  1. Display the Liebster award on your blog.
  2. Thank and link back to your nominator.
  3. Answer the nominator’s 11 questions.
  4. Nominate 11 other bloggers with about 200 or fewer followers and link to them.
  5. Draft 11 new questions for your nominees.
  6. Notify your nominees via their blogs or social media.

So, my answers:

1. What made  you venture into the blogging world?

To make my fantasy world as real as possible.

2. What do you like best in blogging? any memory that remains in your mind?

I can meet several people with similar interests as mine, and that everyone is kind here. Memory? The feeling of being nominated for an award^^

3. If you had a full day to yourself, would you spend it yourself or chill out with friends?

It depends on my mood. Now I would like to go somewhere with my friends or my boyfriend.

4. Has anyone ever made you feel on the top of this world?

Yep. 😀 You, dear Hargun. 😀

5. Ever had a  dream that scared/amused you? Narrate it in a few words. 😛

Yep again, I posted it. It’s the Disorder and Dystopia. That scared the crap out of me.

6. Have you made friends you cherish, here?

Of course, yet I’m not sure if they think of me as a friend (no negativity indicated here). @hargunwahi @amommasview @lightwalker1

7. If you ever hit a jackpot,what would be your first purchase?

A flat that would be mine so I should never be afraid of being forced to move because of debts. (I had a hard childhood 😀 )

8. The post you are proudest of till date?

Maybe, Blogging 101: Try something you never did before

9. What do you like to eat in breakfast- something specific ?

I rarely have breakfast. Usually I ‘eat’ coffee with milk. 😀

10. Do you have a pet at home? If yes,  do tell a trait you find amusing.

I have a dog. He’s like me, you can never pet him too much as he is never enough of love.

11. Any Advice you would like to give to a fellow bloggers from your blogging experience?

Sure. If you are anxious about the popularity of your post, just go away from WordPress for hours and do something else. This is kind of like Murphy’s Law yet it doesn’t have a name. So let’s create the Iridescent’s Law 😛 : The more you wait in front of the computer for likes and comments, the less will happen. But when you forget about it and get engaged in something else, by the time you go back to your blog, you will be full of likes, comments and follows. So, don’t worry. 😉

My nominees:

  1. Shouting into the Silence
  2. Girl Alone
  3. Anniewhere She Goes
  4. Italian Hurricane
  5. Recover Not Relapse
  6. Flavoured Lemons
  7. SandCastle
  8. Life of a DIY Shopaholic
  9. Quixotic Reflections
  10. Lightwalker’s Blog
  11. Jacquifool

My questions for my nominees:

  1. Why did you start blogging?
  2. What would be your dream job?
  3. What inspires you the most?
  4. Dou you have a special ritual or place for writing?
  5. What are you most proud of about your blog?
  6. If you could achieve anything only by blogging what would it be?
  7. Do you have any unusual habit? If yes, what is it?
  8. Do you like reading? If yes, what kind of genres do you prefer?
  9. Have you ever surprised yourself by doing something you thought you’re incapable of, yet in the end it turned out it is one of your hidden talents?
  10. Would you like to be famous? If yes what for?
  11. Are you a cat or a dog person?




Where Did The Purple Pig Come From?

If you haven’t read the story itself, you can do it by clicking here.

I have been taught at university that every (art)work we create, let it be writing, music, painting, or sculpting or anything else, reflects our souls, deepest fears and desires even those, which we may not be aware of. Concerning this, I don’t intend to analyse the story this deeply as I think it is quite understandable. In this post, I would like to write about the inspiration and discoveries I made after I wrote Purple.

Today, in the age of technology where everyone has smartphones I’m sure most of you would recognise this game:



(Yes, this game is Pou and again, yes it’s a pig with it.) Though, I’m not really keen on these modern gadgets, I have a smartphone but one of the dumbest ones (and I’m sure it hates me, really). So, whenever I had to wait for a longer time, e.g at the doctor or for the bus, I played this game and I thought it would be more interesting if they would finally reach a place on the other side of one of the hills. This is where the idea of villages came from. The other directions of the Crossroads appeared in my mind unintentionally, one after the other.

The pig itself, though it cannot be seen on the photo above, is purple, and that is the thing that makes the story fantasy or fairy tale. To be honest, I don’t know why I coloured it purple because actually, I don’t really like that colour. Or at least I didn’t, now I’m not sure. But for some reason, I stuck to the purple pig being the catalyst in the story and I had no idea why. Just imagine, if it was a horse for example, that would be no fantasy but a mere horror.

So, after I wrote the story, I made a little research and found that the colour purple actually represents enlightenment, power, ambition, also mystery, magic, independence and wisdom, and several similar stuff. While pigs, usually represent virility and fertility. So, I realised that is why it comes from Own Town where people are independent and magical and possess a great amount of knowledge and also that is why it always escapes, going on its own way. Thus, thinking about it more, I figured that the purple pig actually represents fate, that cannot be controlled (at least not easily) and sometimes hits us without any advance warning.

So basically, inspiration is a very mysterious thing, it usually comes from nowhere or strange situations (like in my case with this very uhm…lol game) and you can decide if you ignore it, or grab it and create something unique that comes from your very soul.